I should be gratefull..

One day, i told myself that i need to get back my life as soon as possible. So i got it. I got my (old-like)life a week a go.

I should be gratefull. I am. I'm so gratefull that, finally, i get my life back.

But, in other side, i feel so scared. I'm afraid of everything. I worry too much. I think too much.

What should i do?

You know, even this is looks like my old-like life but this time is a real time. A real time which i shouldn't make many mistakes. 

A new place, a new team, some new friends, a new job description, a new point of view, and many more. I should adapt as soon as possible. And i am afraid.

I am afraid of something that doesn't come yet. I am afraid of the next days. I am afraid of myself.

Tonight, i met with some of my college friends. We talk about everything. We laugh about nothing. I feel good. I miss those old times. When we spent much time together. When we talk about everything, laugh about something that not so funny, and do nothing.

So i told about my worries. I told them that i'm afraid. I told them about my hesitations. I told them what i felt. Its good to finally could talk with someone i knew. Someone who i've been together for some times. Someone who ever had same thought with me.

They told me that i worry too much. They told me that i shouldn't think about something doesn't come yet. They told me not to worry about tomorrow. They told me that i should do my very best today and let Allah do the rest.

Actually, i know that should do it. I know that shouldn't worry about everything. I'm just afraid, ok?!

When my friends told me about it, i suddenly feel good. I suddenly feel that everything will be okay. I feel that i can do it. I feel that i am good enough to get my life back. I don't have any hesitation now. I feel that finally i gain my self confidence.

Now i can exhale my breath for awhile.

But the most, i feel good because i met them. I feel good because i shared with my friends. I feel good because of our togetherness.

I don't know when we will met again, but i treasure this moment. I treasure my memories with my friends.

Because, they are, one of my reasons which kept me sane.

P.S: pardon my bad english! Hahahaha